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Joshua Neil Farro. A 22-year old man who composes songs for bands and singers. He just moved in to the new apartment near his working place.  He didn’t choose the apartment which he would pay a lot. He didn’t want to waste his money for some ridiculous service of maids and all. He always wanted to be simple on most things.

It was Friday. Josh began unpacking his stuff while listening on the songs in his iPod. He heard a loud, disturbing noise on his neighbor.  It seems like something was being dragged. Curious, Josh stopped from unloading his things and listen closely to the alarming sound. Eventually, he heard a loud scream of a woman. Followed by broken glass, and a huge voice of a man who unceasingly shouting.

“Hey, Jerms. Man, this place is kinda strange. I can hear this screaming and.. I mean, people here are like what? War freaks? Or what?” He said to his friend Jeremy Davis over the phone that evening.
“Dude, welcome to the reality. Just don’t mind them. Uh.. Probably they have some play going on there? I actually don’t know. They’ll stop. Believe me. Just focus on the song you’re working on. Okay? It’s due next week.”
“Okay, okay. I’m working on it. Catch up with you tomorrow at work.”
“Bye.”

The apartment was not that old. The smell of the wood was all over the place, which made Josh like it more. Everything was on a good condition, except for the fact that he doesn’t know anyone around yet.

Surprisingly, there was a soft knock on his door. He quickly stood up from his black sofa and made his way to the door.
“Hello. I’m sorry to bother you but.. Wow!” A woman greeted him as the door swung open. Josh was shocked, a beautiful woman was standing on his doorway. She looked haggard and hurt.  Her t-shirt was full of dirt and some blood. While a young boy with wild curls on her side, was sobbing.
“Are you alright Miss?” He asked worriedly as he led the woman and the young boy inside.
“Yes, I’m definitely alright. Your place uh.. looks cool. I’m Hayley by the way, and this is Taylor. My little brother. And you are?”
“Thanks. I’m Josh. I’m just new here and doesn’t know anyone yet. Glad to meet you two.” Josh smiled.
Hayley smiled back. “Would you look after my brother for a while? I’ll be back for him later. If you don’t mind. He really is scared. And I don’t want him near my retarded boyfriend now. He is drunk. Please! Please!” She pleaded. Her eyes were filled with tears.
“Sure. No problem.” Josh answered. Then, Hayley rushed to the door and closed it.

“Hi Taylor. Everything’s going to be fine now.” Josh smiled. Taylor was quiet, he barely know this man who was talking to him. He was really scared and shocked by her sister’s boyfriend. He doesn’t want to go back at their room anymore.
“Okay, I can see that you don’t really know me at all and you don’t wanna talk. So probably, we can eat. Come with me.” Josh grabbed Taylor’s wrist and led him to the small kitchen. Different candies and cookies were placed on huge glass jar at the cabinet. Josh leaned down and carry Taylor on his arms. “What do you want buddy? Let me know.”
“Thaff one, please. Big Bwather Josh.” Taylor pointed the soft chewy cookie on the jar.
“Wow, good taste huh?” Josh remarked. He grabbed the glass jar of soft chewy cookie from the cabinet and put it on the small wooden kitchen table. “Drinks? Milk? Juice? What do you prefer, sir?”
“Juice.” Taylor replied happily. “Coming right up. Now, Taylor. I want you to sit there.” Josh pointed over the comfy sofa. “And I’ll join you after I prepare our food. Understand?”
“Siwr, yesh siwr!” Taylor replied and hurriedly sat on the sofa.
“Kids.” Josh smiled while putting some cookies on the plate and juice on the glass. “Taylor, so, you up for cartoons?”
“Ow yesh! Yesh! Yesh!!” He answered as he jumped up and down on the couch. His smile was huge.
“Okay kid. Slow down. What do you want?” Josh laughed as he joined Taylor, along with the cookies, chips and their drinks.
“Spongeeeebawb!” He replied happily.
“Okay then, let’s get it on.” Josh turned on the television and switched the channel to Spongebob.

Taylor grabbed a few cookies and stuff it all in his mouth. “Ow. Big bwather Jowsh! Thish ish sho yummy!”
“Careful kid. You might choke.” Josh laughed as he remind Taylor.

They were in the middle of watching when someone screamed again. “Ah! No! Chad! Please! Stop!! No! Please. Don’t! Please. No!”
“What was that?” Josh asked to Taylor. But as he turn his head on Taylor’s direction, the kid was already snoring.


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I CAN'T and I WON'T have the deluxe edition of BNE, though i want it so bad!

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Hayley's POV.

There is only one word to describe the situation. Insane. The memory is still lingering in my mind. It was Tuesday, when it happened. After a week of keeping questions to myself, I finally decided to ask Josh about it. I’m really confused. I don’t know who am I going to believe in. If it’s Selena or Josh.

“Hayley. Please. I don’t want to talk about it.” Josh argued, his eyes were flickering on mine.
“No. Just answer. Did you just .. Try to kill her?” My curiosity is just killing me. It makes me want to ask more even though I can see that Josh really doesn’t want to talk about it.
“Josh. It’s true, isn’t it? You tried to kill her.” I mumbled.
“Please. Just stop asking me such questions. Please?!” His facial expression look horrible.
“All I’m asking is your answer Joshua. What?” I’m starting to feel afraid. He seems guilty. Maybe Selena is right? Oh no. Josh. How could you?
He didn’t respond anymore. He held a firm grip on the golden key and later on, put it on the ignition. Before he drive off, I jumped outside the car and run as fast I could.
I heard him, yelling for my name. But I didn’t look back.
It’s just simple. All I wanted is to know the truth.

I blame myself for everything. If I didn’t run. If I didn’t nag him. That wouldn’t happen. Josh had an accident the night we fought. I don’t know exactly what has happened because Emily just called to tell me about it. There is one thing I do know, it’s all my fault.

“Josh. Oh my god.” I rushed to his side as soon as the door swung open. “Oh no! What did I do? What have I done? No!!” I wailed. Josh was lying on the hospital bed. His eyes were closed. He was breathing through the tubes that were sucked up to his nose. While the other tubes were placed on his wrists.
“Please Josh. Wake up. Please, open your eyes Josh. Please. Please. Please.” I sobbed.  “Please. Don’t make this hard for me. I’m so sorry Josh. Please. Can you hear me? Joshua! Please. Wake up. JOSHUAAAAAAAAAA!”

“He won’t wake yet.” Selena said.
I quickly stood up , wiped away the tears from my face and turn around.
“The doctor said that it might take him three weeks to wake up again.” she said. She flopped herself comfortably on the sofa near the curtained window. My eyes were following her every movement.
“Oh god.” I mumbled.

After a couple of hours, I left. I grabbed several clothes because I’m staying over, just to look after Josh. I feel really stupid for letting this happen to him. If I didn’t nag him, this wouldn’t happen.

The night was crawling in. Then, the doctor came inside. She was wearing, of course, the white gown that doctors usually wear. She was also wearing an eyeglasses, her hair was pulled up in a bun and her stethoscope was curled up in her hands. She seems nice. I wonder why she’s the one who is checking Josh’s condition. I mean, nurses do that. I waited for her to finish.

“Umm.. Doctor? May I ask you a favor?” I asked, my voice was hoarse. She was about to leave then.
“Yes, what is it?” She replied, looking back to me.
“Can you look after my boyfriend when I leave?” I asked.
“Of course, we’ll be taking in charge.” She smiled.
“What I mean is that.. I’m leaving. I’m off to New York soon and I don’t know if Josh will wake up then. So, that’s it. His family isn’t around because they were gone to their granny’s. No one‘s gonna look after him”
“Don’t worry about it, sweetie. I‘ll help you.” She promised.
“Thanks.” I forced a smile and the doctor smiled back. She left after a few minutes.

Selena’s POV.

I curled up my hand on the doorknob of  Josh’s room when I suddenly heard someone talking. I just got back from the canteen to grab a cup of coffee. I pressed my ears close to the door and tried to listen carefully. Oh. So little orange-haired girl will leave Joshie. Perfect. Josh will be mine, again. I quickly act innocent when the door swung open. I smiled at the doctor and stepped inside. I saw Hayley beside Josh’s hospital bed. She was holding Josh’s hand and kept on rubbing it slowly.

“Hello.” I said with a  fake smile. My nerves are starting to crack up inside, it makes me want to throw my hot coffee on Hayley’s face.
“Hi. I thought you left.” She replied, her voice was weak and tired.
“No, I didn’t. I’ll stay here with you.” I said. I won’t let Hayley look after Josh alone.
“Oh. I asked Emily to come over too. Thanks. By the way, I also thought you were mad at Josh after what he did to you.” She said.
“What did he do?” I asked. I could not remember anything that I’ve said to this girl.
“You know, when you’re in the parking lot. Blah blah blah.” She replied.
“OH! I.. I.. I.. uh. I tend to forget things. It doesn’t matter to me now, anyways.” I sipped my coffee slowly, just to hide the nervousness I felt. That was so close. I thought she’d caught me lying.

A few moments later, Emily came. She was wearing a tight pants and a t-shirt. Her huge bag was hanging on her left shoulder and her cell phone was on her ivory hands. The three of us barely slept. Hayley stayed at Josh’s side almost the whole night, while Emily took short naps on the sofa. I, on the other hand was on the other side of the sofa.

If I could just kill Hayley and Emily, things would have been better than what they seem.

 
Not Hayley’s POV.

Two weeks had passed and Hayley was about to leave for New York. Aunt Cheska already prepared everything that she might be needing for college. It was hard for her to leave Josh like that. Hayley left a letter for Josh, kissed Josh’s forehead, mumbled I love you and buzzed off.

Hayley is on her way to New York.

After a little while, Doctor Sheena, the doctor who said that she’ll look after Josh when Hayley leaves got inside Josh’s room. She saw the brown envelope where Hayley’s letter inside. She grabbed it from the side table and slipped it into her white gown pocket.

And just when the right timing, Selena arrived.


Selena’s POV.

I hurriedly made my way inside Josh’s room and saw her doctor inside.  I smiled and asked if she saw Hayley.

“No, I did not. But there was a letter, I think. I found it over the table. Here.” She said as she gets the envelope from her pocket. She handed it to me.
I quickly looked at the back and saw Josh’s name written on it.
“Thank you. I thought I’d lost it.” I smiled.

Gotcha. Poor Hayley. Josh will not ever read your letter. I won’t let him.

The doctor got out of the room after she checked Josh’s condition. I was staring outside the window when I heard someone murmuring.

“He.. Hay.. Hayley. Hayley.. Hay. Hayley.” It's Josh's voice.

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* PLEASE DO EXCUSE LAME GRAMMAR MISTAKES. I DIDN’T GET A CHANCE TO EDIT THIS. THANK YOU FOR YER UNDERSTANDING. :)

GOD BLESS.

I don't know what I've done to this. I swear. HAHA. And it seems confusing, I guess. I don't know. I didn't get a chance to edit this. . Ummmm. I'm not sure if someone will read this. Kinda short. :Whatever. 

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Paramore is having their tour, together with New Found Glory. Hayley from Paramore and Chad from New Found Glory have been dating for the past five months. While Josh, on the other hand, have been busy with his own girlfriend. Josh tried to keep a distance from the two ever since the tour has started. It’s been five years since Josh and Hayley broke up. Probably because people are trying to focus on their love team instead of their band. It cause too much pain for them, but eventually they moved on. I guess.

Chad. A guy with tattoos on his arms, have a muscular body, a lot taller than Hayley and with a good personality. Josh. He was like a shy type of person. He barely talk nor share his feelings to anyone. Anyone but Hayley.

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I ran to the sink at the bus and hurriedly washed my dirty face. Jeremy slapped a plate of icing on my face. That’s him when he is really in the mood for fun. I was talking on the phone then. But that doesn’t matter. I mean, it’s not really a big offense for me.

As soon as I was done, I ran made my way outside the small comfort room on the tour bus when I  accidentally collided with someone. So now that’s me, being clumsy.

“Ow!” I exclaimed from a sudden shock. It seems like I hit a wall. Just see the difference, a muscular body and a skinny one. I would really get hurt. I rubbed my arms, trying to ease the pain.
“Sorry. I didn’t mean to.” A manly voice apologized.
I fixed my gaze on the man standing right in front of me.
“Josh.” I winced when I said his name. That’s totally odd.
“Hayley. Look, are you hurt?” He asked worriedly. He even held my arm.
“I.. I’m fine. Don’t worry.” I smiled. “Promise, Joshie.”
“So, do you want to take revenge? You can punch me if you wanna.” He said teasingly. “I mean it.”
“Nah, I won’t do it. So, yeah. I gotta go. Chad is uh.. Waiting for me outside.” I lied. I just made it all up because I hate the way I act when it’s only Josh and I. It gets a little awkward and I can barely breathe. The hallway, I don’t know if I would call it hallway, but it seems so small for two people to get through. I excused myself and took few steps.
“Not so fast, Hayley.” Josh grabbed my right wrist. Then, he scooped me on his shoulders. He was like carrying an empty sack. I’m not that heavy so it doesn’t bother him, carrying me like that.
“Wey! Put me down! Let me down!” I exclaimed. I don’t know what will be his next plan.
“NO!” he replied devilishly.
Then, he lay me down on the couch and began tickling me. I can’t help myself from laughing out loud.
“Josh. Pli.. Please. STOP! I can’t.. Waa. Josh! NO!” I screamed.
“Okay. I’ll stop.” He removed his hands from my tummy and stood up. “Oh. What’s that?” He asked. Looking directly on my blouse. Well, I’m wearing a low dark green blouse. I flushed.
“What?” I shot back. My cheeks are really burning from humiliation. Imagine, he’s staring at my boobs.
“There’s a..” He whispered. His hands were heading to my blouse. Oh shoot!
“No. Please, Josh.” I stepped back. My heart is hammering wildly against my chest. We’re the only one left in the tour bus. Everyone else is outside because we’re having a “small” feast.
“Please, Hayley.” Josh took a step towards me. I could see Josh’s hand reaching for my blouse. Yes, my blouse. Err-.
“No! please!” I closed my eyes firmly.
“Ew. What’s that? An icing? Oh holy crap! Where did you get this?” He asked. I slowly opened my eyes, puzzled. He show his thumb with an icing. “Oh boy. I guess my shirt have an icing already!” He exclaimed. And stretch his shirt from the back to front.
“Oh.” I looked down on my blouse. And there’s really an icing on it. Yay! False alarm. That was way stupid. Absolutely.
Josh guffawed.
“What?” I asked.
“You should have seen your own face. It’s really hilarious. It seems like you’re about to cry.” He laughed.
“Ahuh? Is that so?” I retorted. I grabbed a pillow on the couch and throw it straight to his face. And I throw him more.
“Hayley, okay. Stop.” He said, he’s covering his face. But he’s laughing. Boy, this guy is so weird.
“No, I won’t.” We’re both laughing in unison as I continue to throw pillows on him.

“Hayle.. Hey.” Chad appeared. His voice sounded happy and down to a cold one. “Oh. I thought you.. Um, never mind. So, shall we? The guys are having a showdown.” Chad offered his hand and I hesitated to take it. Why so? Chad grabbed my wrist and looked to me then to Josh.
“Oh hey there Chad.” Josh greeted him.
“You comin’?” Chad asked to Josh, who is heading to his bunk.
“Yeah, I’ll be there in a minute.” Josh replied and turn his back to us.
“Let’s go. They’re really hysterical.” Chad led me outside. I didn’t even look back, ‘cause I know Josh isn’t looking at all.

So true, the guys are really hysterical. Jeremy and Taylor are dancing like mad, so as the others. Josh is with us a few minutes before the guys started another crazy dance. He grabbed a drink and sat afar from us. He likes being alone sometimes, and it’s killing me to see him like that. I barely talk to him because, I don’t know. Probably the reason of ending our relationship  a few years ago isn’t really a good idea. There are times that I miss him and there are times that I don’t. It’s really not a good sign.

He’s now heading to the place where everyone else’s seat is located. Of course, including mine. I quickly look away and watch the guys. A few moments later, I heard Josh say ‘I love you’. I know, he’s the one who said it. I know.

“Okay, I’ll say it again. I love you.” Josh said. Am I dreaming? Really? Josh is saying this to me? When Chad is sitting right next to me!
“I guess. I still love you.” I replied. I remain calm and silent to my seat. I just confessed it to him. Even if my boyfriend is around. What the heck, Hayley.
“Ahm.. Okay, see you soon. Bye.” Phone. Josh isn’t talking to me! But rather, he’s talking to someone else. “Hayley, you up for some BBQ?” Josh asked.
When I turned my head, Josh is there, smiling with a phone on his hand.
“Yeah, sure.” We both stood up and grabbed BBQs on the table at our left side. It was full of BBQs, cake, hotdogs and so on. Did Chad hear me a while ago? When I mumbled those words. Arghhh..

Josh and I were talking about her girlfriend. I just remain silent because I don’t know how will I respond to him. My head is spinning, twirling in confusion.
“Yeah, so that’s it. Hayley, I don’t know. But I can’t see my future with her.” He said.
“Why not?” I asked curiously. I held the cup of juice in my hand.
“Because.. I’d rather spend my future with you. I love you Hayley.” He mumbled, staring deeply into my eyes.

Okay. Pause. Rewind. This is not really happening.

“But Josh. I can’t. There’s no way we can get back together. There must be a way but I can’t risk my relationship with Chad just because of my selfish wants. I’m sorry.” I whispered. I’m so sorry. I still love you too, Josh.

Josh nodded and walk away from me.


                                                                  What hurts the most
                                                                  Was being so close
                                                             And having so much to say
                                                            And watching you walk away
                                                                  And never knowing
                                                                 What could have been.

guys. hey. what's up?

i'm so sorry, i haven't updated my ff for almost two weeks. actually, i'm working on the next chapter and my new ff. but i feel like crap and sick, couldn't finish it.

If I can get a chance to finish the next chapter, I'll post it.

Im sooo excited for BNE. i can't afford the deluxe edition, haha. and I don't know if it's available in my country. anyway, i gotta go. talk to ya soon. i miss you'all.