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OMG. IT'S TRUE.

i cannot believe this. Paramore's concert is really true!

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Mar 9

Manila, Philippines, SM Concert Grounds

FUUU. I HATE BEING POOR. D:

i need to have my salary before it's too late. :

Buzznet.

hey buzznet! Sorry for being inactive. I became busy with work and school. Anyway, I'll try to do something good from now on.. you know, post something. I haven't finished any fanfics of mine! That was really stupid!

Umm.. first week of school was fine. Very tiring. Professors are kinda.. good. But I believe I may have a hard time studying.. cause when laziness strikes, it's hard to deal with it, sometimes. Hmmm.. Yeah, that's all. I guess.

Hope y'all have a great weekend! God bless!

PARAMORE CONCERT???!!

Shit. I heard this news from my classmate. and she said that paramore will have a concert here, in the Philippines. i don't believe it. really. okay, maybe i do. but i'm not yet sure if it's real. Hmm.. around March 2010? Oh my goodness.

I already confronted my mom, told her the sort of a VIP-ticket or what, i dunno. which costs 10,000 pesos. my goodness! 10, 000!!! D: and she said.. "WHAT? NO!"

so yeah, maybe i can't watch them perform.. live.. and I won't get a chance to meet them. and.. Lastly, maybe that news isn't true.

If it is, I'm dead. Where will i get 10,000 pesos?! doom. deadddddddddddddd.

LAST SONG - chapter 7(part 2)

HERE'S THE PART TWO :)

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Weeks passed with a blur, nothing had changed much.
Hayley began to ask herself if Chad had something to do with Jane’s death. Suspicious, she was incredibly thinking about it every single day. Because of the bloodstain. She had finished another song and decided to give it to Jeremy. She knocked on the open door, when Jeremy looked up, a warm smile came up to her face.
“Nice Job, Hayles.” Jeremy commented, pressing his back on his chair.
“Excuse me? Did I miss something?” Hayley asked, completely puzzled. She haven’t handed her song to Jeremy and yet he was giving a compliment.
“I’m talking about your song. Josh passed it a week ago.” He explained, his hands under his chin.
“Sorry, but.. I don’t know anything about that.” She sat down nervously on the chair near Jeremy’s desk.
“Oh.” He stared at the window for a while then back to Hayley. “Wait, here’s the song.”
He handed the song to Hayley, written on a paper, almost brownish. She recognized the handwriting, it was hers.
“How come Josh gave it to you? When I kept it all along at my house. That’s completely impossible. This can’t walk by itself.”
“Okay, you’d better ask Josh about this, first. Then, we’ll talk things out when it’s clear enough.”
“Thanks. Anyway, here’s my song.” She handed him her song, written freshly on a music paper.
“Wow. So here’s the deal here Hayley. Since that’s really a good song, I want you to sing it. I asked Josh if he knew the melody, but he said he didn’t. I will give you a break if you want. So do, Josh. I mean, you two can become singers.” He smiled.
She was stuck by Jeremy’s last words. Singers. She felt excited about it, but the feeling she had regarding her other song, being passed without her awareness, she felt mad. As she filled her head with different explanation, she bumped into someone while she was walking with her head down. She muttered her sorry and she accepted it. A woman, who seemed to be on her twenties. Wearing a plain green dress, with a collar, matching up with a silver heart pendant and a handy purse. She was blonde, her hair was short but straight. Her eyes were blue, thin lips, no doubt, beautiful.
She heard Jeremy greeted the woman cheerfully, like they’ve been friends for a long time. Looking at her own clothes, she was disappointed. She shook her head then left.

As soon as she reached Josh’s apartment, she knocked more than five times on the door. In any minute, maybe, the door would collapse. She leaned on the wall, next to the it, closing her eyes and humming to make herself calm. It swung open, then Hayley made herself conspicuous. Josh seemed down, he tried to smile but it was obvious that he wasn’t in the mood. She tried to compose herself, she didn’t want to yell or anything close to it. She just want some explanation.
“Hey.” She greeted, walking in.
“Hey, too. How’s your song? Did you pass it already?” He sat down across Hayley.
“Yup.” She replied. “So, when did you get this? How?” She asked, raising the music paper.
He examined first what was written there, before he realized that it was the song he had passed to Jeremy a week ago. “Oh, I saw it on the floor one morning, just there. I thought you—”
“Wait, what?” She asked.
“I saw it right there.” He pointed the floor. “Probably you slipped it under the door or something.”
“That’s completely impossible! I did not slip it under the door!”
Both of them remained silent for a while, then a soft knock was heard. Josh opened the door, and Hayley’s little brother stood silently. His head was down, and he kept on twisting his fingers together.
“So..rry.” He muttered as Josh led him to the couch. “Don’t get mad to bwather Josh. I..did slip that song of yers. I really, really like everything about it, Hawyley. I‘m afraid that if I told you to pass it, you won‘t awgree.”
“But— I told you not to touch my personal things.”
“That’s why I’m sorry.” Taylor cried, rubbing his eyes with his fingers. “I’m..So..rryyyyy.” He said in between sobs.
“Okay.” She sighed. “Come ‘ere.”
Then Taylor reached for her sister’s arm and sat beside her. “I won’t get mad at you, you should have asked me first. Anyway, I have a surprise for the both of you.” she smiled.
“Wowt is it? Oh Hawyley!” Taylor jumped.
“Tell us.” Josh exclaimed, waiting.
“Jerms said that he would give us a break. We could be singers!” She exclaimed with excitement on her voice.
“Wow!! Hawyley!! You should sing that song! Big bwather Jowsh would love it!” Taylor laughed.
“So, shall we celebrate?” Josh asked, standing up.
“Yey! Yey!” Taylor jumped up and down, shaking his head.
“Where? Josh. You don’t have to.”
“No, We’ll celebrate.”

As soon as they walked in, their noses were filled with mouthwatering aroma. Taylor felt better, it seemed like they were having a family bonding together. Hayley, on the other hand, was silent. Not that she was shy, but because she was glad than ever. Josh was glad too, but he was thinking that singing was alright. But he definitely prefer to play with his guitar. A host welcomed them in, wearing a white polo and a checkered skirt, hair was pulled in a bun, with a small notepad and a pen on her hand.
“Table for three?” She asked with a smile.
“Yes, please.” Josh replied.
The host led them to a table against the glass wall, the three of them sat together. Josh sat across Hayley, and Taylor sat beside her.
“Please wait for the menus.” The host said and left.
“Josh, really. Thanks.” She smiled, as he squeezed Josh’s hand over the table. Taylor was grinning, looking from Hayley to Josh. He was absolutely glad that there was something going on between her sister and Josh.
They had ordered and they engaged themselves to eating, surprisingly Josh’s phone rang. He excused himself and answered the call.
“Hey, Jerms.” He greeted.
“ ‘Yo, Josh. Just want to inform you that we’ll have a party the day after tomorrow . Tell Hayley, ‘kay?”
“Cool.”
“You can bring someone along. Like that kiddo, I think that’s Hayles’ little brother.”
“Wow, sure.”
“Don’t forget to tell Hayley.”
“’Kay. See you at work.”
“Bye.”
As he made his way back to his seat, he told Hayley about the coming party. Her eyes lit up with excitement, but she was worried if she would bring Chad or not. She couldn’t leave her boyfriend at the apartment alone, he might involve himself with alcohol again. Quietly, she took a bite from her pizza. Josh stuffed a fry on his mouth and shifted his gaze to Hayley, studying her face.
“You okay?” Josh asked as he popped another fry on his mouth. She suddenly straighten up.
“Yep.” She forced a smile.
“You look like you’re thinking of something, or someone.”
“I’m just kinda worried. Should I bring Chad?”
Josh brows puckered, stuffed a fry before he answer. “It’s up to you.” He felt jealous.
She just nodded.

LAST SONG - chapter 7(part 1)

..... THE NEXT CHAPTER. SORRY, LATE AGAIN. : PLS EXCUSE THE ERRORS. THANKS.

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Chad hurriedly made his way to their apartment, shut the door and locked it. His shirt was soaked with sweat, his hair was damp, his breath was hot and his sight doubled. Bumping and falling, he managed his way up to Hayley, who was watching television calmly.
“Hay..ley.” He said, catching his breath.
“Ahh! Chad! Are you alright?” She asked. She helped him sit on the old dusty couch and let him relax a bit. She saw a few blood stains on his shirt, as well as his hands and pants.
She glanced at him, still wondering, worried at the same time. Her hands were tightly curled up on her lap. Then she heard loud footsteps and murmurs. Her heart was hammering against her chest, afraid that her hunch might be true. Praying she was wrong, she stood up and made her way to the door.
“Don’t you dare to open that, Hayley!” Chad shouted.
“But.. I’m going to check what’s going on outside. It’s no big deal, isn’t it?” She asked calmly, though she was afraid what he could do if she would insist.
“Fine, go ahead and don’t go back ever again!” He yelled.
She stood there frozen, holding the door knob. Then she let herself sat on the floor, her head against the wall.
“The woman has been murdered.” a manly voice said.
“Do you know anyone who goes at her place?” another man asked.
“No, I don’t. She lives all by herself.” A familiar voice said, the landlord.
“Hayley, what are you doin’ there, eh? Prepare my dinner.” Chad interrupted.
“Uh.. Sure, sure.” She said, standing up. Before she reached the kitchen, someone knocked at the door.
“Sh*t! Hayley, get that.” He commanded, then he disappeared to the bathroom.

As she opened the door, a tall man was standing in front of her. An inspector. As usual, wearing their all-black uniform. She had to look up a bit before she could see the face of the cop. Long face, pointed nose, blue eyes, slightly thick brows and a tan.
“Good evening miss, I’m just here for a few questions. If you don’t mind.” He greeted.
She quickly closed the door behind her.
“Um.. Do you know Jane?” He asked, holding a pen and a pocket notebook.
“Yes, certainly.”
“Have you seen someone suspicious around here?”
“None.”
“Very well then. Thank you.”
“Wait-. Can I ask you something?” She asked worriedly. “What happened to Jane?”
“She‘s dead.” The inspector left, she stood there at the doorway looking from her left and right. She saw Josh standing on his doorway. He looked worried, his hands were on his pockets as he continuously talk to a man before him. Few people were roaming around, going up and down the stairs, talking to each other. Didn’t know what to do, she turned her back and placed her hands on the knob. She felt sick.

She went inside, closed the door and made her way to the kitchen. She prepared the plate, fork, and a glass of water over the table, as well as the pasta. She sat down and buried her face on her hands.
“What happened?” Chad asked, putting his shirt on.
“It’s Jane. I don’t know.. She died. I guess someone killed her.” She replied, slowly removing her hands on her face.
“Ah, I see.” He sat down across Hayley and started filling his plate with food.
“Don’t you care? Your ex-girlfriend got killed?”
Chad shot her with an alarming glare, he was mad. His eyes was burning with anger, his face was in pain and irritation. Her heart thumped wildly, her lips shuddered, she gulped. She didn’t mean to blurt it that way. He stood up from his seat, so did Hayley. She knew what would happen next, panic was on her again. She stepped back, she couldn’t run, because if she does, things would be a lot worst. Chad grabbed her, and placed his hands on her neck. Trembling, she placed her hands on his chest, trying to push him away. She couldn’t push him away.
“P..l..ease.” She choked. “I..am..so..rry. I didn’t mean to. I swear. Chad, please. It HURTS!”
He leaned in and whispered, “Don’t ever mention anything about my past. If you don’t shut your f****** mouth, I’ll make sure you’ll be dead in no time, understand?”
She nodded. Then, Chad loosen his hands on her neck. Blood suddenly came rushing into her pale face. Her knees collapsed, she fell down coated with fear. He made his foot move in motion, kicking her weak leg. She could bear the pain, though it seemed her body would give up any minute. She just bit her lower lip to endure the pain that was crawling up on her right leg.
(Why don’t you try to fight?.. I can’t.. )
Taylor came rushing to her side, tears sprung on his eyes. He saw everything, but this time.. He did not dare to listen and look.
“Dawn’t hurt me’ sistah!” Taylor cried.
Chad was about to hit Taylor when the kid spoke, “ ‘ya said ya love my sishter! Why are you hurtin’ her? Don’t you love her?” Then he stand before Hayley, spreading his arms wide. “I won’t let ‘ya hurt my sishter again. ‘Caush I love ‘er!”
He fixed his gaze to Hayley, who was crying too, her hand was curled on Taylor’s shirt. While the kid, stood firm on his position. He bowed his head and sat down, then someone knocked on the door again. “Hey, you guys okay there?”
“Yeah.” Chad replied. He felt someone punched his stomach so bad. The kid was right. He silently finished his dinner and locked himself on the bedroom. Abandoning Hayley and Taylor.
“ ‘Ya okay?” Taylor asked, as he hugged her sister.
“Yah, thanks. You?” She said, combing his brother’s hair with her hand.
“Quite scared. Hawyley, we have to leave this instant.” He mumbled.
“No, we’ll stay here. Please.”
Taylor looked at her, then nodded slowly. “If you shay so.”

LAST SONG - chapter 6

GUYS. SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE! :( EXAM WEEK: HAD TO STUDY.But.. I promise, I'll try to update after my last day of exam which is on thursday. hope you understand. and uh.. anyways, enjoy :]

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The sun gleamed perfectly, sending warm rays on the Josh‘s living room. Hayley sat on the floor, continuously writing a new song. Her small back was leaning against the wall, knees were pulled closer to her chest, her huge notebook was resting on her left hand, whereas, a shiny silver pen was twirling around her right hand. Few crumbled papers were surrounding her, almost five or so. She was completely enjoying every second of her allotted time for music yet she just couldn‘t find the exact words for her song. For her incredible song. As she wrapped herself with feelings, she moved her gaze to Josh. A sudden and strange feeling crossed over her troubled mind, and heart.
“What am I thinking?” She asked herself, silently. “I don’t love him, really. I don’t love Josh!”
(Are you sure?)
“Yes, I..” Her thoughts suddenly came to a halt. “Honestly, I don’t know.”
(Just make sure you’re doing the right decision. Chad?)
“Yea, Oh Chad! I completely forgot about him! Oh Hayley! What are you gonna do? You just can’t love two guys at once!”
She tone down the rumbling thoughts on her head and tried to focus again. Closing her eyes, she rested her head on the wall. She was thankful for the job, well at least, Chad let her go to work. She wondered aimlessly, drowning herself again.
Three hours had passed, the sun was about to set. She frowned, the picture of her kissing Josh just popped out of her head.
(You like it.)
(No.. Okay, Maybe I do. But what the heck? STOP! STOP!)

Wait, don't go away.
Just not yet.
Cause I thought,
I had it.
But I forget.

And I won't let you fall away,
From me.
You will never fade.
And I won't let you fall away.
From me.
You will never fade away from me.

And now I let my dreams consume me,
And tell me what to think.
But hold on,
Hold on.
What am I dreaming?

Josh was looking for a perfect chords on his old buddy guitar that would literally match the lyrics of his own song. He was on the other couch, focused.

The perfect words never crossed my mind
'Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me, screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me

All I wanted, just sped right past me
But I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out

There you are, standing right in front of me
There you are, standing right in front of me
All this fear falls away, you leave me naked
Hold me close, cause I need you to guide me to safety

All of a sudden, he stopped when he saw Hayley, her head was tilted, like she was sleeping. Placing the guitar on the floor, he got up and made his way to her.
She must be tired, he thought.
When he was standing near her, he sat down silently, and slowly reached for Hayley’s cheeks. As he placed his warm hands on Hayley’s face, she abruptly turned to him with a puzzled expression. Josh’s hands suddenly dropped, and his eyes met hers. A long, heart-stopping stare was between the two of them. No one spoke, they just remained silent for a couple of minutes. Her lips abruptly made a way for a smile, her hazel green eyes were dancing in gladness. He gave in, he smiled back.
“Why are you staring at me?” She asked. Smiling, her brows were raised up.
“Why? Is it bad?” He answered, grinning.
“Nah, it’s just that.. I feel embarrassed.” Biting her lower lip, then eventually hide her face on her hands.
“Why? You shouldn’t be, miss.” He reached for her hands and put it down.
He leaned in, unhurriedly, looking from her eyes then down to her lips. It was sending chills on her spine, and she liked it. She closed her eyes and waited for Josh’s lips to be pressed on hers. It was different, a different kind of feeling. She never felt like this before. Chad never kissed her that way. As Josh deepened the kiss, she wrapped her arms around him and kissed him back. His fingers stroke her hair softly, as he led his kiss to a sweet stop.
“Sorry.” He mumbled.
“What for?” She asked, resting her head on his chest.
“Hayley, I love you.” He said as he placed his hands on Hayley’s shoulder.
She didn’t know what to say.
(You love him too, right! Come on! Say it!)
(..But.. Chad.)
(He never loved you…)
“ ‘s okay if you don’t say anything. I.. Understand.” He gulped. He felt like crying as he swallowed those words. “You’re already taken by someone.” He said sadly.
“Shh..” She placed her one finger on Josh’s lips. “I.. lo-”

Hayley was about to say those three words to Josh, when a loud booming sound interrupted her from doing so. Upstairs. Like something dropped hard, they exchanged an alarming look.
“What’s that?” She asked, standing up.
“Dunno. Let’s go and check it.”
“No.. Don’t. It must be uh.. The landlord, I guess.” She said, holding Josh’s wrist.

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PLEASE. EXCUSE MY ERRORS. :

* TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS!

YOHO! Let's get it on!

AGAIN, ANOTHER JOSHAYLEY ONESHOT. I NEVER GET TIRED OF 'EM. HAHAHAHAHA!

HANDS DOWN. a new oneshot from me. but then, i haven't figured out what would be the flow of this story. haha.

LIVING IN YOUR LETTERS. ummm.. i know the plot but i can't deal with it now. [schoolSTUFF:]

I'm definitely afraid to do these oneshots. haha. IDK what will be the outcome. hmmm.

+ I LOVE THE WAY I EDITED THESE PICTURES. HAHAHAHAHA. WHATEVER. : I just went a little NUTS.

-- SUGGESTIONS? COMMENTS? ANYTHING YOU WANNA SAY? OR NOTHING AT ALL? OKAY. THANKS.

LAST SONG - chapter 5

SORRY, LATE UPDATE AGAIN. BEEN SICK FOR A FEW DAYS + MORE REASONS NOT TO BE ABLE TO UPDATE THIS STUFF. ANYWAY, IT'S HERE NOW. FINALLY. ENJOY :)

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Taylor woke up from his sweet sleep, yawning, and stretching his arms as he got out to find her sister. He wandered along the hallway, searching, looking from left to right. Took a few steps, then he reached a familiar door. He stood mutely, his eyes were fixed on the unfurnished wooden floor. Later on, with a close fist, he raised it up to the door as if to knock, but he realized that it could be alright if he wouldn’t. Big bwather Josh will be surprised, he thought.
He curled his small fingers on the door knob, and twisted it slowly. As he push the door lightly, he sluggishly sneaked in, then closed the door behind him. Not making a sound. Tiptoeing and hands half-raised, he examined the place. It had been quite a long time since he had seen this place. He missed Josh a lot. It wasn’t like Hayley was forbidding him to make a visit, but he was afraid that maybe Chad would caught him going at this place, then he would eventually beat his sister while he was not around. He was afraid, what if Chad would locked the door and not let him get inside. That would be a big trouble. Yes, Chad may have changed, or it seemed that he did, but maybe he was only faking it.
He took a few steps before he reached the kitchen, and saw her sister’s back, eventually he saw Josh. His jaw dropped wide open, he could not believe what a view was on, and hurriedly placed his tiny hands on his eyes for cover.
“Hay, is thaff you? Bwather Josh?” He asked, still covering his eyes.
Both Hayley and Josh suddenly jumped in bewilderment, and looked for the one who had talked. The look on their faces was like on those who had been caught in the act. Well, they really were caught in the middle of the act. Hayley covered her mouth before she gasped, while Josh pursed his lips. Two pair of eyes were looking intently on a kid just almost fifteen steps away. Taylor his hands from his face and slowly open his one eye. Then, followed by the other one.
“I just, sorry, guys, really, I don’t.. know..that you, umm.. That you.. You two-” He spoke.
“Okay, Tay, sorry for that too. So, up for some games? Food? What?” Josh asked. He didn’t like being caught, he didn’t even know what he would say. After all, Tay was only a kid, he was too young for that, maybe. he thought.
“Anything! Yehey!” He jumped with joy. He could sense that it must be awkward or it was bad that he interrupted from her sister and his big bwather Josh. Hoping that both of them were not mad at him. And how he wished that Hayley would marry bwather Josh in the near future, if that would be possible. Chad was a monster for him, a mean, huge, sort of a frightening beast with huge sharp teeth, his body was like that of a dinosaur. He had seen a dinosaur once, on the TV shop while he and Hayley were strolling outside.
“Okay then, wait there.” Josh pointed the living room. “Plug in anything you want, got new episodes of Sponge bob there. Pick.” He smiled.
“Whoaa! Churr! Churr! Hawyley, c’mon. You helpf me.”

Taylor turned to his sister and asked, “Hawyley, do you lov’ big bwather Josh?” The three of them sat together, watching Sponge Bob. He sat between Josh and Hayley, a bowl of popcorn was sitting on his lap. Josh suddenly froze and shifted his gaze to Taylor then to Hayley.
She just let out a smile.
“Oh come on Haywley!” He pleaded, making a few popcorns spilled from the bowl.
“I love Josh, as a friend, Tay.”
“Ahhhh. Bu’ Chad? You love him too as a friend?”
“No, not a friend. More than that.”
“Okay, but how about you big bwather Josh? Do you lov’ mah sishter?”
“Yes, as a friend.” Josh gulped. He wanted to blurt Yes, I love your sister. But more than friends.
“Okay, so you guysh can be married now. You love each awther, right?” He said, almost pleading.
“No, we can’t, little Tay.” Josh answered. “Maybe, your sister Hayley and Chad will.” He gulped again, it was really hard to pretend. But he had to.
“Is that true Hawyley? You wul marry Chad? UGHHHH!” Taylor blurted out, nearly standing up from his seat.
“Maybe, some other time. But not now.” She replied simply, then looked directly at Josh. Her eyes met his, and she whispered sorry. Josh nodded.
“EH!!” Taylor shrieked.
“Tay, stop it.’ Hayley shot. She must have been annoyed. First, Taylor saw her and Josh making out. She felt naked deep down inside. What could his little brother think of her? Second, that question. Marriage. It seemed absurd for her, how in the world his brother had thought about such. He was only a kid.
Taylor suddenly frowned and stood up, sat down from another couch across where he sat with Hayley and Josh.
(What’sh the matter with Hawyley? If she love big bwather Josh as a friend, she should marry him. SHE REALLY MUST! I can feel it, it’s not only as a friend, it’s more than that. She‘s lying to me? Oh no! I‘ll find a way, just wait.)
After watching, Taylor asked Josh if he could play a song for him. Of course, for Hayley too. Without hesitation, Josh said yes. He grabbed his guitar, and had begun to strum. The first time after two years, he would sing again in front someone who had been close to him.
“Big bwather Josh! Can I ashk you a favor?”
“Sure, anything.”
“Can yo’ play a shong from your composhition, plish?” He asked innocently.
“ ‘Kay.”
He begun, strumming amazingly, and blurted the lyrics perfectly.

Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say.

He ended the song there, actually, it was not yet finish but he wanted to. Taylor clapped his hands together, amazed.
“Wow! You’re amazing big bwather Josh! OHHH! Just sho you know, Hawyley wrote a few songs before we got here. I think it was amazing too.” He leaned closely to Josh’s ear, and told him so.
“Really? Hayley, is that true?” He asked. “You wrote a few songs before?”
Hayley turned her head to Josh and afterwards looked at his little brother. “Yes, I did.” She replied softly.
“Great! I’ll call Jerms. Maybe, you can have a work by next week? I didn’t know you’re a composer too.”
“Wait. Josh.” She said, stopping Josh from calling Jeremy.
“Why? Don’t you want a work?”
“I want to. But, I’ll ask Chad first.” She replied.
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OHHH. PLEASE EXCUSE MY ERRORS. THANK YOU!

LAST SONG - chapter 4

HEY, SORRY FOR THE LATE POST. ANYWAY, ENJOY :)

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Weeks went by like a wind.
Chad had been quiet as the week passed by. He didn’t drink, yell and hurt his beloved girlfriend. That was good. He wanted to change, to open his doors again and learn how to cope with anything he might encounter. A difficult move for him to do, like he was playing a chess and it was like a matter of life and death. I wanted this change, he said to himself.
He promised Hayley that he would try his very best to find a work and to start a new life, with no alcohols around. She agreed, even though she was afraid that one day Chad might change his mind and return to his old doings.

Josh felt miserable, he wasn’t given any chance again to see Hayley and Taylor for almost three weeks. There were no yelling, screaming and breaking of glasses. As if none of them ever existed in that apartment. An urge within him, telling him to step out his rented room and steal Hayley and Taylor away from that guy named Chad.
He opened the door, then looked straight over the woman standing in front of him, beautiful as ever. He fell in love, no doubt. He did. The woman smiled, making his heart sank with happiness. Her hair was pulled into a bun, then her face was like glowing at that time, no fresh bruises, no tears on her hazel green eyes. Nil. Josh walked slowly towards Hayley, then hugged her. She rubbed Josh’s back, wondering.
“Josh? Are you alright?” She asked, pulling away from Josh’s tight hug.
“Yes, now that you’re here. I’m definitely alright.” He blurted out.
“Okay.” She smiled. She felt like she had done something to Josh that made him act that way. She didn’t mind it, maybe it was nothing.
Silence.
“Are you going to let me stand here forever?” Hayley laughed.
“No, come on in.” Josh said, a smile could not be removed from his handsome face.

Hayley went inside, while Josh closed the door. She was surprised and impressed, the room was well-organized. Two huge paintings were hanging on his wall, behind the CD rack. An abstract painting, which there was a plenty of pictures as you looked at it closely. The second was a painting of a yellow and black butterfly on a sand.
She remembered everything, fresh as the morning sunshine. Her life was good now. And she was delighted to share it to Josh. A friend. Just a friend.
She pressed her back on the comfortable couch which was across Josh’s.
“Hayles, Can I ask you something?” He asked.
She shifted her gaze to Josh and nodded willingly.
“Chad, where is he?”
“He already left, Josh.” She said dramatically. “For his work.” Hayley smiled.
“Oh, I see. So, do you want a drink or something to eat?”
“Anything will do, thanks.”

Josh felt a twinge of jealousy. It must have been crawling towards him ever since Hayley mentioned his mean boyfriend, like a snake. Ready to attack him if he ever made a wrong move. Oh yes. Yes. He already made that deadly move, and the only cure was Hayley from its poisonous venom. He felt sick. Knowing that he could not have the remedy for his serious condition. It had been one year since Josh had a girlfriend, her name was Jenna. She was tall, simple, tantalizing eyes, short hair and kind. They lasted for almost four years. They had broken up because Josh found out that Jenna was only using him for her financial stuff. It was a rainy evening, he was about to walk in when he heard Jenna talking on the phone. Blurting out everything. He was betrayed, by the only person he loved the most. Since then, he didn’t have the courage to fall in love again. Not until she met Hayley when he moved in.
(Oh yes. I’m definitely using him. Just using him. JUST USING HIM..)
“Josh? Are you alright?” Hayley asked worriedly. Her brows wrinkled and her eyes twinkled. She placed her soft hands on Josh’s arms.
He did not respond, he wanted to. But the words didn’t want to come out from his mouth. It were locked inside his throat. In silence, both of them stood so close to each other. His head was bowed down, while Hayley looked up to him.
“Hey, Josh. What’s the matter?” She asked once again. Josh just gazed at her with sadness on his face.
“Huh? I’m.. Fine. I’m sorry.” Josh replied suddenly. Like he suddenly woke up from a deep sleep of gloomy nightmare.
“You sure?”
He nodded.

Hayley was puzzled, there was something about Josh that made her think deeply. She brushed aside the thought that maybe Josh had an awful experience from his past or just now. She didn’t know.
Later on, she didn’t even realize that her lips were pressed on Josh’s. Her body felt weak as Josh deepened the kiss, his arms were wrapped around her small waist. She tried to pull away, but he grabbed her again and kiss her more. She never let go that time. There was something about his kiss which made her give up.

I won’t let you fall away
From me
You will never fade away
You will never..

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PLEASE EXCUSE THE ERRORS. : AND OHH! THANKS FOR THOSE WHO COMMENTED AND BUZZED THE PREVIOUS CHAPTERS. YOU GUYS ARE WELL, WAY MORE THAN AWESOME. THANKS! :) *haha, im late for my first class!

LAST SONG - chapter 3

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“Ahhh! Jerms, will you come over? Bring Zac along. Someone needs your help!” Josh exclaimed that evening on the phone. His apartment was full of crumpled paper. For two reasons: One, he couldn’t figure out what words he should write on the neat paper. Second, all about Taylor and Hayley.
“Oh why oh why Josh! Fine, we’ll be there.” Jeremy replied.
“Thanks, I’ll be waiting. Bye.” Josh hung up.
He was desperate to find out the truth about Chad and Hayley. No matter how he tried to brush away the thought from his stubborn mind, he couldn’t. It had been almost three hours since he last saw Hayley and Taylor and he was troubled. He did not know what was going on. He was thinking what might possibly happen to those two. Deafening silence. No screaming, no breaking of glasses or plates. Nothing at all. He couldn’t even understand what he was writing.

“I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.”

“Ugh!” He muttered and dropped down the paper and pen. Effortlessly, he stepped out of his room and started to disturb one of his neighbors. Standing on the door next to his, he felt uneasy. A close fist, ready to knock on the room with the number 7 metal on top, the door suddenly swung open. It was Chad, standing with a bored, puzzled look on his long face for the reason of Josh’s fist, hanging in the air.
“Who w-are you?” Chad asked, wearing a suspicious look.
“Uh.. Is there someone named Hayley who lives here? ‘Cause, the landlord is looking for her.” Josh lied.
“He-ley! Someone’s looking for ya!” Chad shouted. He headed on the main door of the apartment.
Hayley walked towards Josh who was standing on the doorway, then waited for Chad to disappear outside the dark. Her face had a smudge of make-up, no, it was blood again. Those hazel green eyes were wet again and a small bruise was located just beside her lower lip.
“What are you doin’ here, Josh?” Hayley whispered, like she was talking secretly.
“I.. I’m just worried. That’s all. How are you? How’s Taylor?” Josh replied.
“I’m okay. Josh, you shouldn’t be here. Tay’s asleep already. Guess he had a long day. Please, go.” Hayley was about to shut the door, when Josh stopped her from doing so.
“Not so fast, lady. Since I lied to your uh.. Boyfriend. Come with me and we’ll talk.” He mumbled on a serious tone.
“What for? I don’t want to come. And I wouldn’t leave Tay here, alone. You’re just wasting your time, Josh.” Hayley shot him a sad look, like she was pleading.
“Fine.” Josh answered, as he turned his back to Hayley and slowly walk towards his door.
Hayley closed the door softly. She didn’t know why she was feeling odd when it comes to Josh. Shutting the doors, closing any communication that might have existed, maybe, maybe not. She was still holding the door knob, her hand was curled up to it, she hesitated at first but eventually opened it.
“Josh!” she hissed. She was about half way when she looked up, seeing two unfamiliar guys with different hairstyle that was almost similar to Josh’s. And Josh was standing near the two, his brows were raised.
“Hmm?”
“Okay, let’s talk.” She said breathlessly.
Zac and Jeremy focused their attention on the lady, who was standing not just too far away from them. They were like shocked. Zac, Josh’s brother. He liked drums a lot, it was his very addictive hobby. He typically enjoy night life, roaming around, food trips and bars which local bands play. On the other hand, Jeremy Davis. A long-time friend of the Farro Brothers, he was also Josh’s office mate for nearly three years. He was a bassist, a very good one. They could actually form a band, because Josh had been playing the guitar since he was a teenager. But they didn’t have the singer, so they couldn’t make it as a real band. Anyway, they had been busy with their work, so they got no time for forming such band.
“Oh. Okay, Josh. You have a girlfriend! Finally! Dude!” Jeremy laughed, Zac joined in as they burst out laughing.
“You guys are insane. She’s just my neighbor okay? Just get inside.”
Zac and Jeremy went inside, still showing a teasing look on their faces. As soon as they were out of Josh’s and Hayley’s sight, the two stood up quietly. The hallway was too small, it was only three-fourths of the measure of one meter. Hayley cleared her throat and looked directly to Josh.
“What is it?” She asked over.
“Hayley, did he hurt you again? Tell the truth.”
She could not say it to anyone, how Chad had hurt her so many times. It was sad. She was stung, her eyes were filled with tears and her body shook as she sobbed. Silence, that was Hayley’s perspective. She didn’t want to tell stories when it comes to his nasty boyfriend.
Josh leaned in towards Hayley, then Hayley slowly hugged Josh. He knew the answer, but that wasn’t enough. He had to know everything. He didn’t want Hayley to be hurt again.
“It’ll be okay, Hayley.” He cooed.
“I hope so. Josh, you know, I can’t leave Chad. He needs me, and I need him.”

“Seriously? Josh! Are you out of your mind? You’re in love with that woman!” Zac shouted., they were hanging out at Josh’s place. He didn’t talk to Hayley that much, because Chad almost see them, hugging each other. Chad was drunk again, his sight was kinda blurry.
“No, I’m not.” Josh retorted.
“Drop it guys, eat.” Jeremy called over. “Anyway, Josh. How’s the song?”
“Trash.”
“What do you mean ‘trash’?”
“I don’t know, it was sort of a trash. I’ve written three stanzas-”
“Lemme see.”
Josh handed him a piece of paper, the one he was holding for almost two hours before he decided to talk to Hayley that night.
“Not bad. It’s not a trash. Trust me.”
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PLS. EXCUSE THE ERRORS.